Friday, June 26, 2015

More bullsh*t from Memorial Hospital plus some fishing...

I got a call yesterday (Thursday) from the doctor.  He left a VM around 10am.  I called him back when I noticed the message, about an hour later.  He was nice enough to speak to me directly.  It most likely was the direct result of me being obviously upset on the phone the day before (to his staff) and then canceling the MRI and them catching wind of it.   He started the VM with 'I understand you have some questions...'.  I wasn't about to get into it on the phone so I just basically told him that I wasn't throwing any more money at this issue.  He seemed pretty surprised but said 'fair enough' and basically that was it.   He said if there was anything else he could do for me, just ask...I almost started to laugh. I wanted to tell him that 'doing your job' would be a good start.  Or at least have you staff help you out and do the right thing.... but I just left it alone.

To my utter amazement, he admitted that the disc they sent him from the bone scan at Huggins was the SAME disc I got, with NO diagnostic images at all.  Just a couple of low-res screenshots.  I almost died.  Here it is, another week later, and they did NOT tell me that.  I had to call and bug them.  What an absolute waste.  A waste of my time and a waste of my money.  After I wasted more of my time and money going to the 'follow up' at Memorial, they got the disc sent via UPS and requested it last week (this was only after I SUGGESTED IT).  What the hell is going on over there?!?  Why would I have to suggest that they request the images?  I am assuming, since that was Wednesday of last week, that they got the disc either before the weekend or at the latest, the beginning of this week.  The doctor and/or his office did NOT apparently bother to reach back out to Huggins to get another disc with the right images after they saw they were the wrong ones!!!!  Again, I don't even catch wind of this until I call and complain.  They basically just figured since I was scheduled for the MRI, they could sweep the bone scan under the rug and forget about it.  My wallet won't forget about it though...and the hours I spent away from home, getting this done.  Incredible.  They send me for a bone scan (originally scheduled for NEXT WEEK), I spend hours over there between the shot and the scan and waiting for the disc (which had nothing on it) and then they basically just disregard it, don't even bother to follow up to get the right images, and expect me to shell out more money for another test.  Why they wouldn't immediately call Huggins and tell them they got the wrong disc is beyond me.  I am just floored at how bad the service is.  They just expect me to apparently do either do the legwork or not care if they are dragging their feet on this.  I don't ever treat my customers this way and that is ONLY SOFTWARE.  This is someone's health.

And to make matters worse, they flat out LIED to me on the phone. Yes, I'm saying it... They lied to me.  I called on Wednesday and asked them about the images and whether the doctor looked at them and whether or not I still need the MRI.  The woman on the phone said 'YES, HE LOOKED AT THE IMAGES AND STILL WANTS YOU TO GET THE MRI'.  I don't care how you try to spin it, that is deceitful and a flat out lie.  He admitted that the images they needed were NOT sent.  It was just the two screencaptures I had.   I suppose in a court of law they can say 'well, technically he looked at the images on the disc even though they were the wrong ones'.... but really...are we about to go that route?  Could they not have told me on Wednesday when I called, that they got the wrong disc?   He confirmed that with me on the phone that they didn't send the right disc and that 'the person over at Huggins' probably doesn't know how to burn the right images'.  Wow.  It's beginning to look like a pretty unorganized and low-rent operation to me.  He admitted multiple times that he wants to see the images....he needs to see the images....to make an informed decision.  Well, no images...and I keep getting the run around.  Now let me just say that while the actual doctor appears to be a very nice and knowledgeable guy (and people have actually suggested multiple times that I go see him because he's good), the whole thing just sucks in the way it has been handled. I appreciate him reaching out directly but this is after I complained to the staff about not being contacted when I was told I would be (multiple times over the last 'x' amount of weeks) and after I cancelled the MRI.  Only after all this, does he reach out.  I am now confident it is all about the dollar at this point.  Memorial didn't get me for the bone scan, so they are going to get me for the MRI (or at least try).  The bumbled my x-ray diagnosis multiple times seemingly, they don't particularly care about taking weeks and weeks to schedule tests and just leaving me hanging, and they don't care about trying to follow up, keep me updated, and do their part in making sure they have what they need to do their job.

Needless to say I'm not going back there for anything other than an emergency.  If I need to schedule a doctors appointment or something that isn't time-sensitive, I am traveling to a better hospital, with a staff that is competent enough to do the job they are paid to do without harming the patients or wasting people's time and money.

On a side note, I spent the day at my parents lake and caught 2 small but delicious bass.

Tabby Rose and daddy in grampy's kayak...
it could always be worse...

#fishacidotic



Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Update (not the update I was hoping for after 51 days)

Well there's good news and bad news.  The good news is that I've run a little (very little) over the course of the last week or so.  I did 2 miles last Thursday very easy on the snowmobile trails.  Then I did 47 minutes (no Garmin but probably close to 5 miles or just a bit over) on Friday on the trails/snowmobile trails w/ MQ the day before Washington.  I didn't run Sat/Sun but had a great time walking around up around 4000 feet.  I then ran 5.6 on Monday and 5.4 yesterday (Tuesday) both with Kevin on the trails (Albany Town Forest on Monday and Conway snowmobile trails/single track on Tuesday).  The bad news is that my leg got progressively worse on Monday and Tuesday.  Tuesday it was awful.  It's in a DIFFERENT spot though.  It's lower, which makes me think it's maybe shin splints.  I can probably deal with that.  It felt great to run (mentally) but it feels really sh*tty to NOT know what is going on.  Let me elaborate...

My experience w/ the hospital hasn't been great to be honest.  It's not what I expect for a rather simple issue.  The timeline is as follows...

May 2 - Raced 5k and had no problems at all.
May 3 - May 9 - I ran through intense pain seemingly right away on the 3rd and finally on the 9th decided it was time to get an x-ray.
May 10 - Day off.  Only 2nd day off all year.
May 11 - X-ray in the ER at Memorial.  The doctor says it's a 'stress reaction'.  Tells me to 'take a few days off at least'.  Took a week to be safe.
(May 11 - May 17 - No running.)
May 18 - after a week off...I run 1 mile and have some discomfort in the area around a half mile in.
(May 19 - May 25 - No running.) Another week to be safe.
May 26 - after another week off I run 1 mile again very easy and don't have much of any issues.
(May 27 - May 30 - No running.)
May 31 - Ran 2 miles with little issue (very easy).
June 1 - Ran 3 miles with little to no issue (easy).
June 2 - Ran 4 miles with little to no issue (easy).
June 3 - Had Primary Care appointment where the doctor ran over to the orthopedist, they brought up my x-ray from May 11, and they saw the fracture.  I get an appointment the next day with orthopedist.  I don't run because now I'm pretty disappointed and scared I'll make it worse now that I actually know what it is.
June 4 - I see the orthopedist.  This was the ONLY good thing about this entire experience...they got me in to see the orthopedist the very next day.  That was pretty good.  However,  the appointment was basically talking about it and not much more (I'm not really sure what I was expecting, but going to the doctors lately just seems like a lot of 'talking' and then 'lets schedule something with someone else'.)  I didn't learn much more than I already knew.  He touched my leg a little but nothing more.  He did show me the images on a much better monitor and showed me the line where the fracture supposedly is (but he's not 100% about where it is currently until we have the bone scan, as the x-ray was over 3 weeks old).  He mentioned MRI but said to really know, we need to do a bone scan.  They were going to schedule it for me and told me it would only be a day or two after insurance clears, etc. and 'we'll get you right in'....  I had to call back multiple times over the next few days (and let the weekend go by).  Finally I find out the scan was for JULY 1 after a run around and transferring back and forth.  Almost a month out!  I obviously b*tched about it and then finagled a bone scan at 'nearby' Huggins Hospital in Wolfeboro for much than July 1.  They claimed to not have known that the bone scan schedule was that backed up.  It took me days to find this out and complaining about it, for them to get it scheduled at Huggins (who does it daily as opposed to Memorial who does it 1 day a week).
(June 3 - June 17 - No running.). 
June 15 - Bone Scan in Wolfeboro at Huggins Hospital (which was a pleasant experience but maybe because I 'thought' I was getting somewhere).
June 17 - Follow up with Orthopedist office 2 days later.  They did NOT get the images from Huggins and then made no attempt to call me about it...I just went in and it was a waste of time.  They just got a 2 sentence report by the radiologist at Huggins who doesn't know my issue, that made no sense to me when the orthopedist read it off to me.  It almost sounded like it was more of a stress reaction in the left side and it was not conclusive and there was not much I was told other than we need more tests.... but the ortho didn't see the images so he couldn't even comment.  I basically sat there and we talked about the same stuff.  I learned pretty much nothing new.  He asked me if I got a disc with the images and if I had it with me.  Not really my responsibility and to be honest,  and I started to really lose faith that I was moving in the right direction.  To my utter amazement and disbelief I was suggested to get an MRI now.  Yet another test, now well over a month later, for more money and more time.  A test that I was told was NOT as good as the bone scan...I thought we were skipping to the chase with the bone scan but now I was actually asked 'have you reached your deductible, because I have an idea...lets do an MRI'.  They had me fill out a release so they could have the images from the bone scan (which I believe was a waste of my time and money) sent to their office so the doctor could look at it.  This was on Wednesday of last week.  I was told I would be called.  Nothing.  I figured I'd hear at the earliest, Friday....  The deal kind of was that we'd schedule the MRI but we may cancel it if the images from the scan reveal anything new or unexpected, etc.
June 18 - 2 miles very easy in the woods, as he told me the day before to 'try running on it and if you have no pain, lets start testing it out'.
June 19 - 47 minutes (5+ miles) in the woods.  No real issues other than some discomfort.
June 22 - 5.6 miles in the woods w/ KT.
June 23 - 5.4 miles in the woods w/ KT.
June 24 (Wednesday (TODAY)) - I have to call the ortho's office because no one has contacted me.  I need to give the hospital 24 hours notice to cancel the MRI which is on Friday (in 2 days)  I ask the woman on the phone what the deal is.  Has anyone seen my images?  Do I still need the MRI?   She puts me on hold for a few minutes and comes back with 'yes, he still wants you to get the MRI'.  I ask again...'has he seen the images'?  The answer basically is 'yes, and he still wants you to get the MRI'.  Thanks for almost nothing to be honest.

Needless to say, I called and cancelled the MRI immediately.  I really don't care if I need it at this point. I don't want to sh*t that hospital any more money to be honest.   They are not doing a very good job at making sure the customer is satisfied by any means.  Would it have been too much to follow up with me at any point when they said they were going to?  I'm not going to continue to f*ck around with scheduling tests.  I had an x-ray 44 days ago.  I know nothing more now than I did then.  No diagnosis.  Still wanting to schedule more tests.  Incredible.  Thank God this isn't a true emergency.  I missed a bunch of races and running...big deal.  In the grand scheme of things, that's not the end of the world, but it's been a very frustrating summer so far and no one should be dragged on and on like this.  I'm closing the book on working with Memorial on this issue and if I need any further advice or help, I'm going elsewhere.  They don't care.  It's not their leg.  I don't like to be jerked around frankly and no one is going out of their way to stop me from being jerked around.  No one else I know has been left out to dry this long when they have an injury like this.

For now, I'm icing and stretching and running short and easy to see if I can get back to basics.  I'm not throwing any more money at this issue because I have a feeling it's going to be 'rest, ice, and start back slowly'...I think I've already go that covered.  Now that I've missed all the races I gave a sh*t about this year, I don't mind taking the time to try to ramp back up or just let it heal and start new next year.

The entire issue so far...

May 3 - June 24 - 
Total days: 51
Total days off from running completely: 42
Total days running at least 1 mile: 9
Total miles run in that span: 29



Tuesday, June 23, 2015

2015 Mount Washington Road Race

Well, it's pretty incredible but I was on the sidelines for this race this year.  I wasn't alone in that situation as there were plenty of other guys sidelined as well (some far faster than I am at the hill)...but it's still pretty crazy that I wasn't on the starting line.  What I was able to do however, was get up to just past the 4000 foot mark (over 4 miles in) and get some great footage (via my iPhone) of the entire field of entrants (who made it to 4 miles at least). I did miss one woman unfortunately as we were driving down. I fumbled for my camera but didn't get her.  I got everyone else though.  I split up the footage into 7 parts.  Mike Quintal and I were doing the commentary and some of the moments are pretty funny.  As the race went on and the middle and back of the pack runners came by, more and more funny moments ensued and there were some really cool people out there talking and commenting on the race as they went by.  Even though I wasn't running, I still enjoyed myself up there and vow never to miss this race again as long as I can at least walk it.

For now, here are all the clips below.  Most of these are in 9 minute chunks but all are pretty entertaining in parts.

Part 1 - Top 9 Men at 4 miles.  Joe Gray doing his thing...



Part 2 - Most of the faster field and a lot of the top women.



Part 3 - More fast men and women (a good chunk of the women's good local NE field).



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Monday, June 15, 2015

Update - Scan Complete...now I wait.

Quick update of sorts...I got my scan this morning over in Wolfeboro.  It was a crappy day out weather-wise so I wasn't too bummed about being over there in such bad circumstances (usually I love walking around in the downtown area).  I had only been there (at Huggins Hospital) one time ever and that was a while back when I went there while I was visiting my parents place back in high school.  They brought me up in the computer and I was last there in September of 1994.  It was funny to hear her ask me if my address was still 10 Appleton Rd. in Wakefield (and then she asked me to confirm whether or not my number had changed and she read off my old number from back in the day).  Needless to say, I had to have them update their system.

I had the injection at 8:00 am and then had to wait around until 11 am for the scan.  I should have just gone home and then went back after breakfast, but instead, I drove over to my parents place a couple towns away (which was slightly closer than going back to Madison) to do a 'drop-in' but they weren't even home.  That kind of sucked but at least it ate up some time.  I drove back and just sat in the parking lot of the hospital until it was time to go in.  The scan was pretty quick with them taking images from the top and bottom as well as from the side.  I waited around 20 or so minutes afterwards and got the images on a disk and I looked at them but they really don't show me much at all that I can make out.  It 'looks' like a mess on my left side but then again, I'm no expert and maybe it's just me making something out of nothing because I don't know how to read the images.  Depending on my mood, when I bring the images up, it looks bad...but then later it seems to look OK.  I have to wait around for the doctor to read the report and view the images they are going to send up to Conway and then I meet with him on Wednesday to go over the results after a professional eyeball or two looks at it.  It sucks that I have to wait another couple days.  My leg is bothering me and I'm not sure what to do in the meantime.  I don't want to make it any worse and something tells me it's going to be bad news.  I hope I'm wrong.  At least my leg isn't as bad as Dave Grohl's is apparently. Yes I did just throw a reference to something musical post-1998.

For now here's just a bunch of pictures of me being the best Dad around... no child was harmed in the making of this photo montage of awesomeness....









Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Follow up...

Got a call back from the orthopedist today.  They finagled a bone scan for me in Wolfeboro on Monday.  I guess Wolfeboro does more frequent scans (2 days a week instead of the 1 at Memorial).  Monday is better than July 1 so I took it.  They did admit again that they were unaware of the frequency (or infrequency) of the scans at Memorial.  That is a bit weird to me because you'd think they'd order a lot of bone scans, being the orthopedist...and they'd know by now how booked they are and how many days a week they do it.  They told me that they 'learned something' ...so I guess that's good.  I have a follow up w/ the doctor on that following Wednesday so he can review the scan results. I am hoping they have them back by then and they get the data from Huggins to Memorial without issue.  My injection is at 8am and the scan is at 11am.  A fun morning down at the big lake for sure.  Today my leg was kind of bothering me all day. It probably had to do with me standing on a ladder for 5 hours painting the back of the house....that no one sees.

Kristin brought up the point today after she read my last blog post that I neglected to mention that I dusted off my Playstation (for you newbs out there, that's the PS 1, circa 1997) since I got hurt.  I only own a few games for it and only played 2 with any regularity.  I bought it solely for Final Fantasy VII in 1997. I then got Castlevania: Symphony of the Night and love to play that from time to time...it takes a lot less time to get through than FFVII.  Probably my 2 favorite games ever.  I wasn't much of a 'gamer'.  I didn't have a system newer than that PS1. I had a handful of SNES and NES games as a kid (as well as Atari and Intellivision)...  I couldn't find Castlevania this time around  but I found Final Fantasy in the attic.  I reluctantly popped it in last week after I realized I suck at being active right now.  I play here and there and played the entire time it was raining out the last couple days.  Needless to say, I'm on disc 2 of 3 now and about 40 hours in.  Yes 40.  How lame is this.  At least it's keeping me off my feet.  I have it hooked up to one of my computer monitors.  The other monitor is simultaneously playing My Little Pony movies on Netflix while Tabby sits here and wonders what I am doing, mashing buttons and flipping through strategy guides.


Tuesday, June 9, 2015

A confirmed stress fracture, the runaround from the hospital, a rant, and some family time...

Well it’s been a very disappointing turn for the worst this year for me.  After starting out great this spring, I ran into a disaster with my leg at the beginning of May. My favorite stretch of racing all year is May into June.  And it’s all lost.  I lost ANOTHER Redhook opportunity. I have paid for Redhook 3 years in a row and have missed it ALL 3 of the last 3 years.  What a sh*tshow.  My seacoast series run is out the window now and I have to rethink my direction at this point.  I took 3 weeks completely off right after my nice win at the Children’s Museum 5k in Dover. The very next day I had a horrendous pain in my left leg which was diagnosed (incorrectly) as a stress reaction in my left tibia after I ran on it for a week and just couldn’t deal with it any more.  Since, I have taken more time off....

Fast forward 3 weeks from my initial x-ray.  I missed a bunch of May races (just about all of them in fact).  I didn’t stay off my leg but I didn’t do any running or cycling or anything other than a whole ton of yard work during that time.  The doctor told me actually to 'take a few days off at least'.  Famous last words...especially when it was misdiagnosed.  My leg didn’t really feel like it was getting much better at any time.  It has been really depressing. At times, it would feel like it was maybe starting to get better but then it would start hurting me again when I was climbing stairs or holding the baby, etc.   I tried running 1 mile after 1 week off.  I ran a 7:50 or something in that neighborhood (out and back on the street) and it was ‘ok’.  I got about 0.4 in and felt the leg again (that was 0.4 better than the week before, where it would hurt immediately).  So I did just the 1 mile and stopped.  One week later (now after 2 full weeks off) I ran another mile but slower and on the grass/dirt.  It was better.  Almost no issues but still occasionally ‘feelings’ in that area.  Not 100% but I was not about to do anything dumb.  I took a third week off and started to come to grips with the fact I’m missing Market Square Day…which is probably my favorite race of the year.  And it will be the first time since 2006 that I haven’t run it.  I’m honestly still kind of in shock and denial about that.  People have been asking me all year about my ‘goal’ race(s).  I would mention MSD each time.  Now, I’m out.  Multiple race registration money wasted.  Lots of time wasted thinking about running well there and at Redhook and Mt. Washington.  

Then after 3 weeks, I ran 2 miles easy on the road (about 8 min pace) on that Sunday. That was my longest run since May 9th when I finally had enough.  The following Monday, I ran 3 miles easy on the road around 7:45 pace with just a slight discomfort but nothing alarming.  Then on Tuesday (this is all last week) I ran 4 miles on the road in 29:02.  No real issues other than a very slight twinge at 3.5.  I am so hypersensitive that I notice just about every little thing.  It could be nothing but I know it’s still something not quite right.  If this never happened, that feeling I get now on that left side would be nothing of concern…but because of the pain I had initially and because of what I know it can/does lead to, I really get nervous when I get any sensation in that area.  I have also had absolutely no feeling in my left lower leg on the inside, since this initially happened.  I have been told the nerve took a hit and it could be 6+ weeks for it to improve.  I have never had a nerve issue like this before.  From my knee to my ankle on the left side (inside) I have no feeling other than when I tap a certain part on my upper calf.  Only then do I get a tingle and pins and needles straight down my leg.  Other than that, I can’t even feel my fingers touching my leg.  I’ve been concerned about it all this time but the doctors I’ve spoken with don’t seem to think it’s a big deal.

Then, Wednesday of last week I had my first doctor’s appointment with my new primary care doctor.  During the appointment, he ran down to the Orthopedist’s office and talked to the sports medicine guy about my issue.  They brought up my X-ray from the beginning of MAY.  And guess what…. I HAVE A STRESS FRACTURE.  It was missed on the initial x-ray and evaluation from the ER doctor on May 11.  Great.  Apparently no radiologist followed up or looked at it, which I believe is hospital policy (and if they did, they missed the fracture).  Do I have a lawsuit on my hands?  Or at least should I push back on any bills I get as a result of that visit?  I’ve been pushed in that direction actually.  A missed fracture is unacceptable.   The orthopedist looked at the x-ray from May and immediately saw the line.  I got an immediate appointment with him the next day (Thursday of last week).  I was hoping for something a little more than just him saying I have a fracture but that’s what happened.  He did show it to me on the monitor (a monitor I wish the ER doctor had access to 3 weeks prior).  Then he recommended a bone scan.  I said sure.  Whatever it takes.  It's interesting that the ER doctor didn't see it and told me to 'take a few days off' after I pushed him about training.  What if I took the few days off, then ran on it and made it fracture all the way across?   Unreal.  I can appreciate that stress fractures are hard to see on x-rays early on (and sometimes are not able to be seen)... but when the orthopedist sees the fracture on that same INITIAL x-ray immediately, that's just complete bullsh*t on the ER doctor.  

I told the orthopedist I was interested in seeing if I could still make Mt. Washington.  While he did say to stay off it and not test it out anymore (which is helpful), he did say that ‘after the scan, we can sit down and have a discussion about Mt. Washington’.  That to me indicated that we’d have the scan and he’d look at it, pretty quick….like within a week or so (because Mt. Washington is coming up).  He also mentioned the uphill nature of the race, and how it would be different than say if I ran a normal type of up/down race.   On the way out, he indicated that when the scan is scheduled (pending approval from my insurance), it would only take a ‘day or two’.  Then we can have a quick appt. so he can look at it.  He said as soon as the scan was scheduled, I need to call back and they can shift their appointments around so I can get in quick to get the follow up.  They told me that the insurance usually approves it quick and then they can get it scheduled right away.  I figured I’d hear back Friday.  Nothing.  The weekend went by but I wasn't anticipating hearing anything on the weekend anyways.  I called back yesterday (Monday).  Still nothing.  They fumbled around and indicated that they were going to follow up that day because they hadn’t heard anything back apparently.  I got no call.  Then today, I call back again after lunch because I still haven’t gotten a call.  This time, I find out they got the approval and faxed over the order yesterday to scheduling.  So they forwarded me over to the scheduling department.  They told me they got it today, not yesterday.  Regardless… JULY 1 is my appointment.  YES, JULY.  Over 3 weeks from now.  What a sh*tshow.  I’m sorry, but this whole thing just sucks.  I immediately called the orthopedist office back and told them I need an alternative. I’m not going to sit here and wonder for another 3 weeks if I should be walking around on my leg.  That’s unacceptable.  What if I had a job where I needed to be on my feet?   The woman on the phone at the orthopedists' office actually told me ‘well, we don’t have any clue about their scheduling over there’…and I said that’s fine, but I should not have had my expectations set that it would be done in a day or two (and she did agree).  That’s ridiculous.  And we can ‘talk about Mount Washington’…. when?  For next year?  Sometime in July when the race is in June?  I’m tempted to just go back to the ER to get another x-ray and then call the orthopedist's office and have them look at it again just to give me some sort of information. Is it better?  Is it worse?  That’s all I need at this point.  I don’t need to wait another 3 + weeks and shell out more dollars for a ‘contracted service’.  The hospital already screwed me the first time when they missed a fracture on the x-ray which does show it.  I am now waiting for them to call back after they discuss any available options with the doctor. I don’t want to go run on something and make it worse if it’s bad… but I also don’t want to sit on my ass and wonder when I may be able to start running again.   Regardless, my leg is up and down as far as pain goes now.  I have moments of discomfort and other times nothing.  In the last few days for some reason it’s felt worse.  So I guess I’m not out of the woods…but it would be nice to get some professional help.

So I continue to do nothing and wait.  All my plans for summer racing are gone.  Done.  It’s not due to this hospital back-and-forth per-se but they aren't helping me move in the right direction (yet).  I have to re-evaluate my plans once I have confirmation and some sort of idea.  I can only imagine what it would be like if I had some sort of serious medical condition.  I can’t wait for that day to come.  


For now, I am making the most of my 7 week sabbatical (off work from late May until July 13).  I’ve been spending a lot of time around the house (painting and fixing things….the list is endless) and spending time w/ the family, which is ultimately the most important thing anyways.   Tabby and I have been outside a lot when the days are nice (not like today) just in the yard and in the trails behind the house.  It’s surreal that the summer and beautiful weather that I waited all winter for, is here, and I can’t do anything ‘active’.  I’ve even lost the interest in following what is going on with running and racing.  I don’t want to get any more depressed about it than I already am.  An update will follow once I hear back from the doctor’s office…but I’m not crossing my fingers.  If I was 28, I wouldn’t have this hit me so hard…but at 38…and on my last legs with the fast racing, this really hurts.  Missing time now is not good.